Hear Me Out

I cant help but feel

2009-08-03T07:38:00.000-07:00

Excited
Happy
Blissful
Floaty
Demoralised
Jealous
Depressed
Angry
Inferior
Ugly
Lousy

Wild Horses

2009-08-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

Okay, this is the second time I'm typing this darn blog post.
Damn Blogger!
Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Anyway, I was just saying:

Dance today was poop-shagging.
Gladys really pushed us today for the 4 hours or so.
We did 100 crunches, 50 male push-ups, turns, plies, dont-know-how-many turns and kicks.
It was crazy i tell ya.
We were so shagged before we even did any choreo.
But I guess we have to start building our stamina for Waves14.
So I invented a method today to make stretching more bearable.
Just scream "I'll take it alllllllll!!!!" with a manly voice.
Hahahahahahaha.
I know its stupid, but it worked for me.
I somehow felt stronger and could take more pain.
In fact, I wanted to take more pain.
Hahahahahahaha.
I told Sophie that I was beginning to enjoy the pain.
She looked at me weird and told me I was sadistic hahahahahaha.

This week's been extremely... ... confusing for me.
Ive been feeling depressed and happy all at the same time.

Depression.
For a few days, home became a source of stress, anger and frustration for me.
The feelings were partly directed at myself too.
But it's all over already.
I guess.

Happiness and a lil bit of excitement.
I braced myself and got to the bottom of the matter.
Things weren't what I thought they were to be.
I felt immense relief.
Much much much more relieved than I had expected myself to feel.
And I got to see you, finally, after 3 weeks.
I was so nervous and happy and stunned.
But behind these blissful feelings, I feel a lil sad.
The differene between us is huge.
You're way beyond my reach.
Too perfect, too capable.
Only a wonderful girl would look fit beside you.
Honestly, im just pathetic.
Im barely pretty and totally unglam.
Theres nothing about me that matches up to you.
Yet I still think.
Ugh.

Wild horses, I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love
Like im longing to
Wanna run like the wild horses
Run like the wild horses

Hungry for ______.

2009-07-25T22:57:00.000-07:00

Ugh, Blogger is so damns screwed now.
I cant even choose my own font ._.

Anyway, it's Sunday, so im feeling extremely moody now because school starts tomorrow.
Lectures, tutorials, homework, revision, long and boring MRT rides, heavy laptop, projects, Poly50,dance sessions etc.
Im always so drained at the end of each week, with barely enough time during the weekends to recuperate and re-energize.
But life's like that I guess.
There's no easy way out.

The semstral exams are coming in a month's time.
There's alot to be revised,clarified, memorised, practised...
Especially economics, ugh ugh ugh.
But thank God, Dr.Alex is a wonderful lecturer.
At least I'm not completely clueless.
And then there's MOB, with 9 chapters to memorise.
Hurray not.

I was dying to use the lappy halfway through economics tutorial just now.
Bad, bad, bad. Real bad.
Hahahahahaha.
It was boring the daylights outta me, so I decided to come on to do MOB tutorial instead.
But upon looking at it, Im doubly bored hahahahahaha.

Dance yesterday was awesome \m/.
Warm-up was way way way relaxing (secretly relieved lol, bad again).
We learnt a new choreo again.
Beautiful, but again, Im trying to grasp how to really perform it.

We watched the seniors perform their choreography for Waves 14.
Li Ern's was freaking awesome.
Sophie and I were like gawking at her friends and her.
Hahahahahahahaha.
We even looked possessed lol.
Im so proud of her! XD
(Why am i speaking like a proud mother? .__.)

Okay, I need to start on the tutorials waiting for me already ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh.

Despite all the complaints, I'm secretly relieved that there are so many things pre-occupying me.
I need to stop thinking about stupid things and acting emo.
Hahahahahahahaha.
I need to become laughy Melissa again.

Not exactly the best day i've had.

2009-07-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

Time to re-direct attention.
Aim: Pre-occupy self.

Friends are amazing; they make you realize your worth

2009-07-20T19:46:00.001-07:00

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh!

2009-07-18T21:34:00.001-07:00

Im seriously aching all over.
From my neck(!!!) to my shoulders to my chest to my back to my leg joints.
All thanks to Ryan's killer stretching and core-strengthening exercises.
And not only am I physically tired out, I am also mentally exhasted.
The challenge of Ryan's lesson is not the physical pain, but rather learning how to overcome the pain and push yourself to the limits.

Yesterday, my brain and muscles were at war.
For the first time in my life.
It was so annoying, agonizing and depressing all at the same time.
Mind: Do it, melissa! Do it!
Muscles: Omg, it's fugging painful. I should just give up.
Mind: Dont! Dont give up!
Muscles: Ugh, ugh, ugh! I cant hold on any longer!

If you've experienced something like that before, you'll understand the torture I went through yesterday.
I succumbed several times to the exhaustion and pain.
And upon realizing what a failure I was, quickly returning to the agonzing posture.

Ever since meeting Ryan, I have begun to doubt my abilities.
Am I really meant for dancing?
What happened to those days with Ms.Joey where I could dance and move effortlessly?
Have I lost my passion for dancing?
Why can't I dance like before?
Is it because I've stopped for too long?
These thoughts kept flashing across my mind as the lesson went on.
Even though Ryan was cracking alot of jokes, I could only laugh half-heartedly at them.

There are many girls in my class that are extremely flexible and learn fast.
I keep feeling that I'm falling back, which hurts my esteem alot.
Honestly, dancing used to make me feel strong, superior.
Now, it makes me feel like an utter failure.
A loser.

Let's hope that this is just a passing phase.
And I'll discover my very own place in dancing soon.

It's Sunday.
It's a weekday.
But it's not a rest day.
It's a homework day.
So buhbye for now.

Awwwwww

2009-07-11T22:42:00.000-07:00

I just read Sophie's birthday blog post dedicated to me.
I would have been touched to tears.
I mean, the tears were already brimming.
Until she said she wanted her kids to call me Aunty Smelmon.
Smelmon.__.
Ya luh, forgive you.
Youre such a kindergarten-errrrrrrrr.

Im such a disappointment to myself.

2009-07-11T22:31:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my first lesson with Ryan.
He's such a joy to learn from.
And boy, is he an amazing dancer.
Whenever he demonstrates the moves, ill just get captivated by him.
Damn.
The class started with core-strengthening exercises that were slightly easier than I had expected honestly.
Though nonetheless exhausting and torturous.
Sophie made it out to be so scary hahahaha.
We also learnt choreography from him, to Michael Jackson's 'Man in the Mirror'.
The choreo's awesome.
But...
I wonder if it's because i've yet to adapted to his style, or i simply sug.
I just couldnt carry off the dance.
So i felt deflated and frustrated most of the time.
Im supposed to look well-practiced, but the girl in the mirror looks like she's never danced before.
Ughhhhhhh.

After dance was JB with momma
Routine shopping and eating
I got myself this super chio waterbottle, but... ... i kinda ruined it a little just now.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Forget it hurrrrrrrr not!

The alarm is sounding already, i really really really need to study now.
I'll consider drinking Chicken Essence on Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays.
The days when I'm living zombie.
But the smell of it scares me.

Going strong

2009-07-06T06:25:00.000-07:00

An extremely exhausting day today.
The day started for me at 8 am, all the way to 6 pm.
With no time to rest in between cause' we had to complete our ITAB project, which is due this Thursday.
But all hail the four of us, we managed to finish up the practical section.

I am so addicted to 'We Got Married' now.
Specifically the Joongbo couple.
So is Chicken and Jiaqi.
They're the sweetest couple ever on screen!
And it's all real, no acting or whatsoever.
I fell in 'love' with Hwang Bo.
Shes one of the most fabulous woman I've ever come to know since.
Shes pretty, and not to mention her beautiful figure (duh, shes a model!).
But more importantly, she has the attributes of an extremely attractive woman.
Shes free-spirited and funny and spontaeneous and sentimental.
She cooks damn friggin' well and does alot of charity work on her own accord.
And she treats Hyun Joong the best!
Boy, do i want to be like her.
Hahahahahahaha.
Im sinking in already.
Hwang Bo FTW!

I wonder how long this one will last.
Seems pretty hopeless to me.

Happiness

2009-07-04T23:25:00.000-07:00

What happens when you have the best friends in the world?
You'll be enjoying extreme bliss, just like me.

I cant thank my girls enough for everything they've done for me.

There's Sophie, the blur thang that keeps giving me horrible nicknames like 'Smelmon'.
Thank you for standing by me all these years.
Although you drive me crazy sometimes, but because of you, im never lonely.
For that, I love you tons.

Then there's Lai Yee.
Another girl that has stuck with me for 6 years.
I wonder all the time, why do I deserve such a wonderful friend like you.
You've been the best friend, companion, confidante and soulmate to me.
Thank you so much, for being by my side.
For that, I love you tons.

Stephenie, the beautiful girl that I've always been secretly envious of.
Other than being a fabulous friend that has brought me so many good memories, shes the best work and dance partner I can ever find.
I'm so glad that we've found the comfort in each other's company that we had almost lost forever for the last 2 years.
I cant be more grateful than having you by my side.
For that, I love you tons.

There's Meihua, the girl with special mood swings hahahahahaha.
Eccentric at times, but warm and motherly at times.
We've never been very close, but her presence always mattered to me.
Like on my birthday.
If you hadn't been present to surprise me, I might just find myself disappointed.
I love you tons, regardless.

There's Zikun, the most recent addition to my happiness hahahahaha.
She looks unfeeling and cruel and sadistic, but she's actually one of the warmest, kindest and sweetest person on the planet.
Hahahahaha.
Although she gives me the most painful pinches, she never fails to make my day, every single one in school.
Im so sorry for calling you 'Chicken Kun' all the time (hahahahaha) and suaning your moles (hahahaha x2), but I really cannot resist teasing you because your reactions are hell funny.
So please, feel free to pinch me (not so hard la dey) and we'll be quits.
I love you!

There's Wanli.
She smacks my butt real hard and laughs into my face all the time, but I can't help enjoy her presence.
She's one real friend that's willing to go through everything with you.
She gives the sweetest presents, and more importantly, she writes the most touching stuff.
Hahahahahaha.
I was damn touched by your birthday card to me okay.
I love you so much girl!

Jiaqi and Lijia (sharp house!)
I've never been on close terms with both of them, until this year.
They make me laugh til my sides hurt everytime we meet (especially lj, shes a crack up i tell ya).
And although our friendship has just begun to blossom, they've already become an undeniable part of my life.
I hope to share many more crazy-laughing-moments with you two in the future to come.
And I love you both!

Turning 17 has become one of the best memories I will ever have, because of you all.
I wish, with all my might, that we'll always stay together.
And our kids will call each other "Aunty!"
Hahahahahahahaha.
Okok, think too far.
XD XD XD XD XD XD

They are all i need

2009-07-04T09:25:00.000-07:00

Just a short post for tonight, since im friggin busy with 'We Got Married".
Huang Buin ftw!!! :D:D:D

My seventeenth birthday is officially over!
Officially .__.
Hahahahahahahaha
Thank you to all who remembered this special day and celebrated it with me.
Sophie, Laiyee, Stephenie, Zikun, Meihua, Jiaqi and Wanli(!)
I can't thank you girls enough for the happiness and surprise you all brought to me today.
I was really really really caught off guard okay.
Hahahahahaha.
I love you all so much!

I love birthdays because i get to make wishes too also.
Hahahahaha.
Hope they'll all come true! :D

A quick-y

2009-06-30T23:06:00.000-07:00

PACC today was pretty do-able, maybe even a little easy.
Well, but that's the problem with PACC.
You never realise your mistakes.
And everyone seems to have varying answers so...
Again, we shall see.
Hahahahahahaha.

Pepper Lunch was for lunch with Chicken Kun hahaha
There goes my great plans for losing weight boohoo

I feel like killing myself for being such a coward.
Hahahahahahahahahahaha.
Chicken!

2009-06-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

One paper down.
MOB was... not easy... neither was it difficult also.
The answers are kindof ambiguous.
We shall see.

Insomnia last night.
Sugged like crazy.
I was so alert yet so tired.
But I had a nice dream.
A nice nice nice dream buahahahahahahahahaha.

Missed me?

2009-06-28T05:55:00.000-07:00

Woah.
It's been quite some time since i last blogged.
Seems like I wasn't in a good mood during the last post buahahahahahahaha.
School's starting tomorrow after an extremely short 3-week break so my mood isn't any better.
It's like I havent even had time to blink!
Hahahahahahahahaha.
And the mid-semester tests are tomorrow also.
So that just worsened everything else.
Hahahahahahahahaha.
Okay, why am i laughing hahahahaha.
Anyway, I've thought alot during the holidays.
And have resolved to do some things
Like saving up for my overseas education yay!
And losing weight.
I've got something like a hippo around my waist.
Oh wait, it's not, it's a dinosaur.
Hahahahahahaha.
First paper's MOB tomrrow so life sugs for now.
Need to go mug now.
Yeah.
Ok right now.
Bye.
Now!!!

No idea why.

2009-06-07T05:55:00.000-07:00

No idea why, but
Im feeling unhappy.
Not sad or what. Just void of happy feelings.
Im feeling feeble.
Physically and emotionally.
Im reluctant to go out, even if im meeting my favourite people in the world.
I have so many things to do.
Boring things like washing laundry, packing my wardobe, starting on my projects and revision.
If I had no responsibilities, I would sleep away my holidays.

Glad to have all the alone time I need this vacation.

P/S

2009-06-02T06:45:00.000-07:00

Needs to learn:
1. Time management
2. Anger management
3. Live independently.
4. Slap people who fugging deserve it.

Friggin pissed right now.
Could kill a buffalo if possible.
As for you, yes you, im gonna fugging kill you one day.
Just keep testing me.

2009-05-29T22:13:00.000-07:00

Just one week left to the June vacation.
Cant wait, cant wait, cant wait!
There are like so so so many things that I wanna do do do!
*Skips around like a magical ~~pigsy~~ pixie*
Like shopping (needless to say, im a girl with raging hormones)
Gym-ing
Spending quality time with my buds and debbie yeo
Eating all the good food
Picnic-cum-cycling day at East Coast
Attempt at creating my own blogskin (!)
Rewatching "Fated To Love You" and cry like my dog just died when I dont even have one
And... and... and...
It's gonna be a great great great holiday -day -day!
O.K, im talking like some Okto host hahahahahaha.

However, being a young rising star (hears alot of false coughing and clearing of throats),
I have tons of other serious responsibilties.
Things that I am obliged to do (Notice that my enthusiasm has dipped tremedously)
Studying for the mid-semester tests, packing my wardrobe, re-organizing study area etc.
(Compare the 2 lists hahahahahaha, pathetic one-liner :D)

I have already begun to create a checklist lololololol.
I hope I wont waste away this precious holiday.
Although there's an extremely, dangerously high chance of me couch-potatoing at home dang it!
Well, the knowledge of tests at the end of the holiday should be able to help me keep to my schedule, i hope hahahahahahaha.

Makes mental note: Make a pretty collage for *****
P/S: It's not a guy okay. No guy's worth my effort yet hahahahahaha.

Kbye.

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna slap myself.

2009-05-26T19:16:00.000-07:00

I couldnt take it anymore, so I had to come here and let out somma my frustration.
Firstly, I forgot to bring my statistics tutorial which I painstakingly did the night before.
And then, I did not bring my PACC textbook because I stupidly assumed that I had economics lecture today, when it was otherwise.
And lastly, I bloody scratched my handphone's screen.
This is just great.
Ugh!

Drained!

2009-05-20T17:38:00.000-07:00

(IDEA lesson ongoing ... ... :X)
It's been quite some time since I blogged.
Life's extremely busy and demanding recently.
So I've been walking about like a zombie and laughing less and still eating alot.

1) MOB PBL Presentation
All I can say is: Thank God This Is Over.
This has been the longest presentation of my existence(55 slides) and it sucked big time.
I just felt like giving up throughout.
My members were stumbling all over their speeches, and we exceeded the time limit for the presentation. So...
(Note to self: Be more assertive in future projects. Need to cultivate team spirit.)

2) SDZ Dance Clinic
I think this is probably the reason why my morale has dipped.
It was pretty fun on the overall, since im starting to dance again after half a year.
But something unfortunate happened to me. (No wonder my right eyelid kept twitching before that ahahahahaha)
My left leg cramped during the modern dance section.
It hurt like fug, seriously.
The kind that renders you helpless and crippled.
I was friggin embarassed luh o.k! ):
A male senior had to offer to carry me, but of course, i said "noooooooooooo! I move myself! I move myself!"
Walao eh, big brother, if you fail to lift me, or give that strained face, I'm gonna turn suicidal. Hahahahaha.
But nice guy la that dood.
Thanks uh, Allen!
I finally got to see "flower mulan's" boyfriend dance. (I think she's gonna squeal at the 'boyfriend' word hahahahaha)
And the hiphop teacher was so hot.
Her name's Mel, and she's just darn pretty and cool and funky and everything i'm not. Dang!

Anyway, the best event of this week's that I got to see Ang Li Ern!
Woohoooooooooo.
But I felt like I had disappointed and embarassed her at the clinic :( sniffs hard.
Ugh. Never mind. Need-to-get-over-that.
She dances beautfiful now anyway.
Im happy for you teddy! :D :D :D

O.K, babe needs to go back to lessons.
Final shoutout: Im t-i-r-e-d!

Still alive & kickin' (O.K, maybe not kickin')

2009-05-11T22:20:00.000-07:00

I finally got to see my favourite TCM doctor this morning!
Omg, touched to tears.
I've been waiting to see him since Friday night!
From high fever to no fever hahahahahahahaha, ok not funny, its kinda brutal for me.
Saturday was Vesak Day, so he wasn't open.
On Sunday, my fever just vanished and I felt considerably better.
So I concluded that I didn't need to see Dr.Tan already.
Until night-time, when he had already returned home, my fever returned full force at 38.8.
Almost fried my brains I tell ya.
I was breathing fire already hahahahahaha.

Monday was kinda bad for me.
The fever was still in the 38 range.
And I had to walk to a market in another neighbourhood to visit the Chinese physician there because Dr.Tan(the one at my neighbourhood market) rests on Monday.
When we finally reached (finally for me that is!), my mom and I found out that that stupid clinic's closed too.
Oh ho ho ho ho ho ho ho ho.
I almost cussed out loud.
I have no friggin' idea why most TCMs rest on Monday.
WHY MUST THEY REST ON MONDAY?!
WHY MUST DR.TAN REST ON MONDAY?!
WHY MUST HE REST ON A DAY THAT I NEEDED HIM SO MUCH?!
Fortnunately, by night, the fever was starting to subside and I was regaining my strength.
Yay! wonder woman back in the game lol.
And when I mean regain my strength, it means standing up for 1 minute without feeling uncomfortable.

Last night was an extremely ... ... ... ... tough night for me.
I don't know how to explain exactly.
It's like having nightmares.
Just that I experienced them awake. (And it's not monsters coming alive in my home ok)
Ugh, it felt like I was going insane already.
Weird, really really weird.

O.K, I have to end here already.
Lots of things waiting for me to do.
Screw MOB, theres a major presentation next week and my group hasn't met up yet!
And then there's PACC, ITAB, ABC, XYZ and 123!
Sweet nibblets.

Get well soon Stephenie!
Dont push yourself too hard.
Take things easy, and you'll find that you're on the road to recovery! :D
I love you!

Finally, A Breakdown.

2009-05-09T21:54:00.000-07:00

Ugh, I ruined my own weekends! )':
It began on Friday.
I felt exceptionally tired.
Not the sleepy kind of tired, but the seriously drained-of-every-ounce-of-energy kind.
That's why I insisted on sitting down in the MRT on the way back home.
And I actually started coughing in school.
I hardly ever cough.
So I thought ... that's it.
And true to my expectations, I fell sick at night.
I was feverish by the time I went to sleep.

Saturday sucked so much for me.
It's been quite a while since I've fallen sick.
And I seriously hate feeling so weak and feebly and sleepy and horrible and hideous.
My skin was like wax okay.
And I even had one swollen eye to top of the already depressing combo.

Anyway, the weird thing was, I was craving for cakes.
Like those you can buy from small bakeries at 1 buck plus plus plus.
And they come in flavours like walnut, coffee and pandan and and and...
But I couldnt eat, and still cant eat.
Ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh.

Thank God, the fever's subsided this morning.
But I'm having a runny nose and bad throat now and still look like shit.
Great.
I wanna skip school tomorrow luh.
Tsk.
I don't have enough time to finish up the darn tutorials!
And there's a five hour break in school tomorrow.
I might just die in school pffft.

Momentum

2009-05-07T01:53:00.000-07:00

ZBRUSH IS FINALLY OVER!
WOOHOO!
YEE HAAA!
I never expected myself to actually come up with a product with that friggin' shitty kukujiao thang muahahahahaha.
Initially, I thought that my product and presentation was acceptably good. (I just got corrected on the 'not bad' by 2 critics. Shall reveal their identities later )
But, the bimbo teacher of mine didnt catch what my design was about __
Basically, my design - I call it "The Ferris Wheel - kinda lame i know - is made up of 6 units that can rotate in a circle like a Ferris wheel.
The units are like square shelves, where you can place anything on it.
But!
BUt!
BUT!
That dim woman thought that my darling Ferris wheel was meant to elevate children.
Nimcompoop her.
Ugh.
Forget it pfffffffft.

Anyway, school is officially going full swing with the beginning of the CCA trials.
I joined the Sports Club with the girls,
And then Sophie and I just enrolled ourselves for the Dance Clinic.
The seniors tending the booth were unexpectedly, and extremely cold and unfriendly and sinister-looking.
How nice.
We felt like we were being looked down on.
Their expressions seemed to be telling us "Hurrrr, another 2 dancer-wannabes".
Hello, Im not a wannabe.
I AM a dancer.
I'll show you I tell ya!!!
I have to start preparing my body for dancing again.
It's been more than half a year I've stopped.
Ugh, it's gonna be a painful painful painful beginning.
I told Li Ern that I'll be screaming like a strangled chicken if I were to start doing splits.
Like... pok pok pok pok pok pok pok pok KEH!!!
Hahahahahaha (I just made Sophie and Zikun laugh :D And upon seeing this sentence, the cold-hearted Toh Zikun just denied it. Liar!)

I havent blogged for quite a few days.
And this post was possible because I'm meeting momma for dinner later.
And I dont wanna go to the trouble of going home and returning to AMKHub again.
We're having hongkong cuisine muahahahahahahaha.

Okay, byebye.
(Abrupt-ending style)

Picking Pace.

2009-05-01T05:29:00.000-07:00

Hit the gym today with Sophie.
It was kinda tiring, since this is the first time after 2 weeks of idling and pigging hahahahaha.
The treadmill indicated that I had ran 2.70 km.
I seriously doubt that measurement, so I'm going to find out more about the difference in distance between running on a treadmill and on land.
According to Khoon Geok:

Distance ran on treadmill = 25% of distance ran on land

According to Melvin Loo:

You run more than what is indicated by the treadmill.

Sweet nibblets!

If the former's true, I ran like a mad cow for only 0.675km.

Wow, hahahahahaha, not funny people.

I almost died on that machine hahahaha.

I really need to maintain a more constant routine.

If not, my efforts are going down the drain boohoohoo! i dont want!

But... if it's the latter, I would be running close to 3 km, which is totally kewl!!!

I finally bought the converse sneakers I eyed a few weeks back.

I'll take a picture of my baby for you all soon :D

It goes with almost everything so yay!

I dont have to wear anti-climax looking flip flops to school already muahahahaha

This weekend's going to be very packed for me.

With quite a bit of homework and reading up to do(boo!), and a quick shopping spree with debs and laiyee tomorrow(yay!).

I need need need need need need need more shorts and skirts.

I've been rewearing the only 2 shorts I have (seriously pathetic and tear-jerking hahaha)

And I hope to get a nice dress also, or dresses hehehehehehehe.

Agendas:

1. Stupid IDEA final product design and powerpoint slides (I've already thought of what to make, so... not that bad. I dont have any idea how to make it, so... very bad. It bloody takes up 30% of my total assessment. Kukujiao! )

2. Economices: Tutorial 2

3. Statistics: Tutorial 1 (and 2???)

4. MOB: Researching on groups/teams and decision-making. yawns.

5. ITAB: Group work.

An extremely busy week ahead )':

Should I go for Poly 50 training on Monday???

But I'll be damn shag...

Ugh, I'll have to reconsider first.

I need to go battle with Zbrush already.

Har! (does karate chop pose)

Porridge is my new best friend.

2009-04-26T22:52:00.001-07:00

I skipped school today.
Apparently last night, when I was applying the disinfectant to my idiotic moronic stupid (well, you get the idea) wisdom tooth, I saw blood and some sticky stuff on the cotton wool.
So, I freaked out, naturally.
And it started to throb and hurt.
My pop got worried, and told me to see the dentist first thing in the morning.

The dentist said that the oozing and bleeding is part of the asshole tooth's growth process.
And advised me to take less traumatizing (soft) foods.
Gre-ate.
So it probably porridge, mee-sua, beancurd and all for me for the next few days or weeks or i-dont-know-how-long-again.
Well, golden weight-loss opportunity.
Hahahahahaha.
He also told me that it's a good time for me to put on braces.
So... I'm trying to gather information on the best dentist to go to.
Anyone who has information like that for me, please approach me okay!
I want affordable and professional service.
If the dentist is a hunk, even better.
Makes the supposed-to-be painful process more bearable.
Hahahahahahaha.

Quick Post

2009-04-26T00:46:00.001-07:00

Peek-a-boo(!) bearbear.

Friggin' cute right.

Playful lil' thang :D

I wanna see you soon.

June!

Awww.

Ku-chi-ku-chi!

Mandy said he stole all the house slippers.
I think he forgot to hide them.
Hahahahahahaha.
Never mind, practice makes perfect.

Finally, this is Teddy.
Bearbear's father.
See where he got his handsomeness from hahaha.
Mandy says that as compared to Teddy, bearbear is sub-standard.
But I can she still loves him so much.
Hahahahahaha.
Bearbear ftw.

Sinking In.

2009-04-25T07:01:00.000-07:00

I have wisdom teeth! ): ): ):
One of them hurts like ku-ku-jiao, and even caused my cheek to swell a teeny weeny bit.
Which still sucks.
Boohoohoohoohoohoohoohoohoo.
Even swallowing is kind of painful, much less chewing.
Though my appetite is still normal, as in still big hahahahaha.
Nothing deters Melissa Lum's appetite muahahahaha.
I just have to eat extra extra extra slow and gently.
Which agains sucks for me.
Cause i usually gobble down my food.
Maybe God's providing me with this golden opportunity to practise some feminine etiquette or whats not bleh.
Hope the pain goes away soon.
If not, I'll have to go for extraction, which is seriously freaking the daylights outta me.
Omg, surgery :/
Mandy(my elder cousin) just told me that most (85%, according to www.aaoms.org/wisdom_teeth.php) wisdom teeth need to be extracted.
Sweet momma!
Im freaking out again.
Im gonna look like a goldfish(swollen cheeks) for i-dont-know-how-many-days.
Even though the liar website says there's only going to be "mild discomfort" yeah right, nice try!
I know its gonna hurt all the way. boohoo luh
Never mind, I'll just brave through it!
Muahahahahahahahahahahahboohooohoohoohoohoohoohoohoo.

Anyway, on a much much much much much much more cheerful note,
Mandy got herself a 10 weeks old puppy.
It's a pom-cross-chihuahua called bearbear.
It's friggin cute i swear!
Shall post a picture of that sweet lil' thang soon. warning: he's really handsome hahahahaha.

I went to have my spectacles customized today.
I chose something black and plain and it cost me, or rather my dad, 150S$.
Thats why I've resolved to take really good care of my new baby hahahahaha.
I'll get it on Monday night woohoo!

Although Dad has agreed to pay for my specs and converse sneakers, he refuses to let me learn korean.
He goes "it's not practical. Learn Japanese."
The thing is, I'm not interested in Japanese at all.
Ugh.
Well, I should feel lucky and contented enough that he still pays for almost all of my expenses and gives me sufficient pocket money.
I have friends whose parents do not give them that.
Sucks for them.

That's all for today.
I have to do my Economics tutorial now.
I'm going out with momma to a charity function tomorrow.
I think that there's gonna be alot of yummy vegetarian food there tomorrow.
Yay, yay, yay, yay, yay!

That's why it's called Fantasizing.

2009-04-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

School's been rather busy lately.
As mentioned in my previous post, I have already recieved and completed 2 tutorials!
And the other classes (as far as i know) have barely started.
Gre-ate.
There's even a short presentation on next Monday during M.O.B tutorial bah!

Due to the difference in schedule,
It's been rather difficult to meet up with my girls!
Especially my dearest Lai Yee, whom I've missed so much.
Hahahahahahaha.
Thank God, we ended class together at 4PM;
So we could go grab Subway cookies and go home together!

Anyway, we met our personal and ITAB tutor for the first time today.
ITAB stands for 'information technology applications in business"
He's Mr. Liu Qizhang

Mr.Martin Ng misheard his name as Lucy Ang.

Hahahahahahahahaha.

Anyway, I called him sir. feels kinda weird and stiff lol.
I have no idea why, but 'cher' sounds so unglam in poly hahahahahaha.
I had preconcieved notions about ITAB, thinking it would be really easy and relaxing.
Because Shim Jiaqi told me that her tutor only taught them how to send emails during the first lesson lol.
But... it wasn't like that for DBA 12.
The lesson started off peanuts.
But... .... many of us later realised that there was so much more to Hotmail than we knew.
So ITAB's kinda cool heh.

On the other hand, we had our first IDEA tutorial the first thing in the morning yawns.
Mrs.Tan introduced us to the Z Brush software, a design programme.
It's really complicated and thus, unfun lol.
Zikun and I were creating super hilarious-looking and fugly objects hahahaha.
Well, I've got to spend some time figuring the workings of Z Brush out.
We actually have to create an object and present to the class in 2 weeks' time.
Sweet nibblets.
Damn stress siol hahahahahaha.

Just when I thought I wouldn't see him today.
He appeared looking all handsome and cute and super smiley.
I was screaming internally luh.
Seriously need to practise some self-control hahahahahaha.
I shall not let my inner self be shaken.
Okay, whatever myself.
I need to mug P.O.A already.
It's been such a long time since i mentioned the term "mug"!!!

I.Have.Homework.Oh.My.God.

2009-04-21T09:11:00.000-07:00

Im too tired to blog.
So this is just a super-de-duper short one.
I managed to finish 2 tutorials, hallelujah.
Okay, thats it for today.
I.need.to.crash.right.now.bah!

Peeved.

2009-04-20T05:59:00.000-07:00

Lessons kinda officially start today.
And guess what, it sucked.
Sucked big time.
The first tutorial started at 8AM.
So I had to wake up super early (5:30AM) to bathe and everything.
It was torturous from the beginning.

The first tutor we met was Mr.Tan(is it Mr.Tan or??? I forgot!), our Economics teacher.
He's a pretty amiable and smiley man, with laughter like a hyena.
Seriously, it set Zikun and I laughing mockingly at him quite a few times.
Then, we had to play the lame 'good morning' game.
Just that this time, not only did we have to mention the names, but also our former secondary school wtf for!
And bless me, I was the 3rd person phew!
Then something extremely hilarious happened.
The original sequence has me before Zikun.
However, someone mentioned Zikun's name before mine,
So that thick-skinned woman went "I'm chio-er than you".
I dont know what's the link that but it totally cracked me up.
She looked like she really meant it.
Hahahahahahahaha.

Our second lesson was with Mr.Tan Lii Chong, our MOB tutor.
MOB stands for management and organisation behaviour.
He's a pretty cool dood too, with super thick eyebrows, huge eyes and dimples! ooh i like.
The air-con in the room wasn't working right in the beginning,
So we were sweating like umm, pigs.
The weather's been friggin hot lately.
And humid, not to forget.
It's getting on my nerves!
It gives me bad skin.
And my whole body goes all sticky when I step outside from an air-con room ugh!
Nowadays, I practically cannot function without air-con.
This sucks like boo-boo big time.

Our 5 hour long break followed.
We went over to the SP club house.
It's freaking cool and classy and totally unexpected can.
I thought it would be some shabby place with coconut juice and noisy electric fans...
Well, SP hasn't really succeeded at impressing me yet.
A few of them hit the pool table.
Zikun and I tried our hand.
But I kept embarassing myself, so i decided to stay away hahahaha.

Oh, we went into the Sports Club room today.
It was... ... not what i expected.
The room was really, umm, messy lol but doesnt matter luh dey
I felt really awkward in the beginning because I didn't know anyone from there.
But the seniors there were really friendly and cool, especially the Alfi dood.
He's like friggin hilarious.
And he keeps giving me small scares with his sudden outbursts hahahahaha.
So I felt comfortable after a while.
I finally got to see Sophie's and Zikun's eye candies.
I keep missing Lai Yee's eye candy crap nvm bah!

I got peeved at the behaviour.
It's getting on my nerves, even though I'm trying very hard to ignore the changes.
But it gets friggin annoying sometimes, and a little hurtful, like today.
What the hell is happening!

I seriously need to hit the gym tomorrow.
I didn't go to the school gym today because I thought it was too bothersome to carry so much stuff to school.
And then, school starts at 2PM for me tomorrow hurray!
So i'll have time for a good workout tomorrow.
And zomg! I felt so overdressed today.
Okay, I'm going plain jane style tomorrow.
And another zomg!, I saw him today ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Okay, since when did I start getting interested in him lol.

Breaking The Pattern

2009-04-19T06:35:00.001-07:00

I'm going back to school in exactly 10 hours and 24 minutes and i-dont-know how many seconds.
Ugh.
Although i've been spending almost half a year rotting at home, I'm still reluctant to start school!
Ugh.
And i need to hit the gym tomorrow.
Im starting to pile on the pounds oh great
And someone just told me he's gonna join the SP dragonboat team.
Guffaws.
I seriously look forward to his performance in the future can.
Hahahahahahahahahahaha.
O.k
If he sees this, i'm sashimi.
But,
Hahahahahahahahahahaha :X

Oh Ma Ma Ma Ma

2009-04-18T23:44:00.000-07:00

Aunty Mei Lai, save my face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Zits, go awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Dying.

2009-04-18T00:45:00.000-07:00

It's a freaking hot day today.

Fucking Pissed

2009-04-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

I'm not gonna write about Flag Day because i met a whole bunch of fucking pussies along the streets.
And they were our very own people.
Actually, I had already completed an extremely impressive entry, but after Lai Yee read it, she felt it was too vulgar that it might be illegal.
Hahahahahahahahaha.
Well, those shitheads deserve it!

Smile Zikun, smile!!! (o.k. my smile's so stiff hahahaha!)

Good girl :D

It was that girl's idea .__.

Xin Yan and Jessie

Viknesh and John

Clarence and Jim

Zhou Han and Ryan

Last but not least, our big brother yo.

Orientation

2009-04-15T22:21:00.000-07:00

Orientation was much less fun than I had expected.
But again, with Toh around, things can't get anywhere bad.
Hahahahaha.
She cracks me up all the time with her lame nature lol.
Anyway, we got to meet our new classmates on the first day.
There's
Melvin, our appointed chairman a.k.a lao-da
John, the gentleman.
Clarence, the tanned dood with braces.
Ryan, the one that likes S.H.E how unusual lol.
Zhou Han, the self-proclaimed 'freaking lazy' boy.
Viknesh, the cool and quiet one.
Jim, the extremely tall one that i thought was David when I first saw his back only haha.
Justina, the long and loud and funny girl i click well with i like her!
Agnes, the pretty girl that dresses very ... ... prettily.
Jun Tian, the first classmate I made friends with sweet lil' thang.
Farah, the sweet and quiet one.
Josephine, our vice-chairman.
Jessie, another sweet and quiet one. I think im the most un-sweet and noisy one lol.
Wang Lei, the one that almost never talks?
Jia Yu, the super shy.
Xin Yan, the Chinese national who looks like a Vietnamese f.y.i: shes pretty!
Khoon Geok, we call her 'K.G.' kilograms :X ?
Zikun, no comments. Hahahahahahaha.
God bless, I like everyone from my class.
Everyone's all nice and friendly and we all can kinda click.
So that's totally coo-ool.
Oh, and one of our facilitators, Albert, resembles Lau Zhi Wei so much that Zikun and I were shocked lol.
He's the decent-looking version haha.
But the resemblance is definitely imminent. Maybe 75%?

It's Flag Day tomorrow for us.
This sucks.
We have not even started school and they're using us to generate funds?!
Lol.
Nah, it's for charity!!!
Zikun will be telling jokes in the subway while I hold the tin can.
Hahahahahahahahaha.
We were posted to Kranji.
Who the fuck are we going to collect money from?
Malaysians?
Or the horse-betters?
Most of them already barely have enough money to satiate their gambling appetites.
It's gonna suck like diapers-poo-pee-milk powder tomorrow.
Ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh.

And I've been such a bitch lately.
All pissed and spiteful and gossipy.
Sophie would know.
I need to collect more coins tomorrow to redeem my sins.
Basshya!

Im only 3 hearts, huh.

2009-04-15T21:51:00.000-07:00

What kind of people rates their friendship with others?
If you know me well enough, you'll know i'm talking about you.

Hello Kitty!

2009-04-12T00:01:00.001-07:00

Im going to start off today's post with a picture of Scott's kitty.
Her name's meowmeow.
It's a quite a disappointing name luh, but if you think about it, its pretty unique.
Anyway, he didnt buy her, but actually picked this sweet little thang home from the streets!
Yeah, she was a stray.
Until she fortunately met Scott's mom.
Otherwise, she would be an angel kitty by now. you know, like dead boohoo.
Scott says she bites.
So go meowmeow!
Bite off Scott's nose... and if possible, disfigure him with your kitty claws o.k.!
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Ugh, the orientation programme's starting tomorrow!
A little reluctant to start school luh.
But I'll have zikun classmate! with me!
So that's a great relief...

To a precious jewel of mine

2009-04-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

It's been 6 years since we've known each other.

When was it we first made friends?
In primary 5, we became classmates.
Our friendship, still young and unstable, was full of petty and childish arguements.
At that time, I thought that that might be the end of us.

A year passed, and we were paired off to a new class.
There, we knew no one but each other.
Was that why we grew closer and more dependant on each other?
We spent most of our time together.
After class, we would walk back to my house.
And crack dirty jokes about crows and birdies on the way.
Otherwise, I would walk you to the bus stop.
Where we would drink bubble tea and chat non-stop while waiting for your bus.
Even though we had already spent half the day together, it wasn't enough.
Our phones would get uncomfortably hot from all the hours of talking.
And our hands numb from holding the connection to our ears.
I remember that my mum would say: "Where do you two get all the topics to talk about?!?!"
And I would think in my heart: "We don't think about what to say to each other. We just talk unthinkingly".

When we recieved our secondary school posting, I was all nerves.
I was praying and praying and praying with all my might we would end up in the same school, at the very least.
But Lady Luck was benevolent.
She tied us off to the same class.
I was delirious.
The knowledge that we had another year together swept away all my insecurities about the future.
We had each other.

In our new school, we discovered wonderful friends, which til today, stay with us.
We each found our own partners in the clique and gradually drifted apart.
You always felt that I had forgotten all about you,
But i never, and would never.
Because you are more than a friend to me.
Sister, soulmate, companion, confidante, important and unforgettable.
You are all of these to me.

Throughout our secondary school years, the gap between us only widened.
We joined different activities, went to different classes, learnt different things and had different friends.
The differences we had increased.
There were so many changes, but our friendship remained constant.
And I thank God for that.

When secondary school concluded for us, our lives began to intertwine again.
We had time for each other.
Even though we hadn't been keeping in close touch,
There wasn't awkwardness of any sort.
When we conversed, the words flowed freely, comfortably.
Even when there was only silence, it wasn't unsettling but rather natural.
And that, i guess, is only possible between the truest of friends.

Now that you have just begun a new chapter in life,
I want to wish you the bestest bestest bestest of luck in achieving your goals and discovering new happiness.
I also hope for myself that I would be able to continue playing a part in your life.
Hopefully until we're all old grannies.

You're selfless and overgiving, always putting others before self.
Thoughtful and understanding, you always went with the crowd, often forgetting what you really wanted.
You're hardworking.
And humble.
And sweet. And warm.
And everything nice.
For that, I love you and so does many others.

Happy Birthday Wong Lai Yee!
Again, I love you, and I know you know that too.

Eww, what a friggin' chessy post hahahahahaha.

Merry

2009-04-08T09:52:00.000-07:00

Yet another outing with 2 of my favourite girls!
Debs (the funny 20yearold dwarf) and Laiyee :D
Went down to Haji Lane first there was insider info that a shop there sells pretty $10 dresses and denim skirts, which we failed to discover lol.
We could have reached much much earlier than we had.
But we didnt.
All thanks to surprise! Debbie Yeo.
She confidently told us she knows how to get there still gave me that yaya face at mosburger
And we ended up walking in the opposite direction .__.
The sun was so frrrrrrigggggggin hot i almost turned into a puddle of H20.
Well, honestly, if it wasn't debs but someone else,
I would have cussed away like a machine gun.
But that funny thang's a sweetie luh, so i didnt feel the least bit mad. haha, eew cheesy
Haji lane was quite a disappointment for me.
But the both girls managed to find something nice from this really weird shop with a really pretty shop attendant.
She's mixed blood la dey.

Bugis Street was next.
That furnace is under going renovation.
And when its complete, it'll be fully air-conditioned.
Swee-eet luh.
I spotted 2 dresses there, $42 and $36 each.
Ugh i need money luh.

Vivo was last.
I was excited to revisit the korean shop, but it was a disappointment.
There was nothing there that attracted me.
However, i think God pitied me.
And he endowed me with that damn chio racerback from forever21
I only bought that, but there were at least other 1,000,000 stuff that i wanted to buy home lol.

It's about time to launch Operation Save Save Save!
Lol, im reminded of Xiang Yun's Shop 'N' Save commercial.
Hahahahahaha
Hooohoohoohoohoo
Okay, need to sleep.
Going bonkers like debs haha.
More outings like today!

Gimme More

2009-04-07T13:38:00.000-07:00

I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed money!
For someone who hasn't worked for a single day of her 5 month long holidays, I have no right to say this to anyone lol.
But there are sooooooooooooooo many things i wanna buy.
Maxi dresses, crotchet dresses from victoriassecret.com are friggin' gorgeous not forgetting their boyfriend shortsssssss!!!
Lately, forever21.com has been launching super chio rings and hair and hand accessories!
And then there's the studded jacket from zipia.net
And this... and that...
And my ipod shuffle! this one needs to wait :)

Never mind.
I'll fulfil all my material desires soon.
All i need to do is save up my pocket money. poor daddy haha

Macdonald's pancakes for breakfast.
Just craved them out of the blue so went to get them w/o changing out of my sleeping clothes lol.

That's all for today.
Off to pack up my wardrobe ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):
No pain, no gain, but damn sian siol.

Random

2009-04-06T23:21:00.000-07:00

Just found out that Zikun and I are in the same class!
Is this awesome or what!
We're really really really really really really really really really really really lucky to have each other's company for the next year!
The best part is that we both wouldn't feel lonely on the first day of F.O.P.
I was f*cking delirious when I recieved this news.
Before knowing this, I was all gloomy and depressed and worried that I wouldnt be able to meet great friends like the ones I have now.
Or even worse, ostracized by my classmates. since i can get a little weird sometimes lol
Now that a good friend's with me, I'm so looking forward to school :D
As for the other girls, it's o.k.
Since we're all in SB.
We can meet up all the time for meals and all.
And then Jiaqi and I can dongbang for all we want. yay yay yay!

Another piece of good news: I'll be going on a mass outing with one of my eye candies!
Shiok siol.
Yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay
And then there's a crazy shopping spree on Wednesday with laiyee more maxi dresses!
And then her birthday celebration on Friday
And then off to JB for shopping and haircut on Saturday
This week's all packed!
Only tomorrow's spring cleaning day bahhhhhh
My room needs to look chio for a new chapter in life heh.

Anyway, i'm super excited and ecstatic and optimistic and energetic and pretty and sexy right now lol.
Currently watching 'Proposal Daisakusen'.
Not bad, the guy's pretty hot.
Many thanks to Sophie, who's currently i dont know whether having fun in camp or not!

Outing with my 2 favourite persons

2009-04-02T08:20:00.000-07:00

Returned to Mayflower with Sophie today to collect our certificate.
Had lunch at the coffee shop across the school.
We had our past all-time favourite thai chicken from the pretty aunty lol.
fyi: she's still pretty
Then i kept contemplating how the teachers would look different
Me: Scully Mr.Fam bald hahahahaha.
S: Please luh, you've only left school for 5 months leh. How much can they have changed!
Me: Oh ya hor.
Well, i couldnt help feeling that i've left that school for a long long long long long (kay enough) time whud.
So anyway, we got to tour the school and met quite a few juniors.
Maybe im thinking too much, but i felt so old lol.
And kinda tall and mighty.
Hahahahahahahahaha.
Maybe its just my ego getting in the way.

Headed to meet Debbie(fyi: shes my 20 year old cousin).
She was complaining already cause she reached earlier and we were late. sorlee luh!
Outings with Debs is always fun, cause shes freaking funny and retarded and she speaks mediocre English, which she always mixes with Mandarin.
Lol.
Moreover, she's a small thing.
Makes her all the more funnier heh.
When we reached Vivo, we didn't know how to get to Harbourfront Centre from there.
But thanks to our poor sense of direction, I managed to buy myself a pretty maxi dress!
Hahahahahahahahoooooooooooooooooo~
**Mentally resolves to go back there lol**
When we finally got to HF Centre, Debs couldnt remember where the cheapo shop is.
Gre-ate.
The cheapo shop (we still got there la can) sells mostly weird and cheena stuff.
But when we sifted through the goods, we still managed to find a few pretty pieces.
I got myself a huge boxy tee for $10!
And Debs, as usual the cheapo girl, got lots more lol.
And we all went home happily ever after.

I have to say sorry to my darling Sophie here.
I was late meeting her today cause i couldnt bring myself to exit Pets Society.
There were too many hungry and dirty pets to feed and bathe.
So... please understand :D
But its all thanks to Pet Society that i come online more often now.
Hahahahahaha.
I dont know why im so addicted.
I think its because i named my pet after jaejoong's stage name: Hero.
Lolololololol.
Fan girl appearing blah.

Best Gym Workout Ever

2009-04-01T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hit the gym today with Sophie, her mom and supposedly Wong Lai Yee.
As i had said supposedly, that girl didn't turn up.
Oh well.
Started the workout with the treadmill, followed by the bicycle the usual
Then, many thanks to Sophie, i got to learn how to use a few other machines that I never knew how to use before.
Oh ya, i forgot to add.
Sophie's mom has a super-de-duper hot bod.
Even for a 17 year old, much less an aged 40+ woman.
Damn, she made me depressed.
Hahahahahahahahahahaha.
Aunty Tan is way kewl, i tell ya.
I also learnt the 'Static Hold' pose from her.
Hell, it was tough.
Both my arms were trembling like crazy by the 50th second.
Ugh.
But she said it trains the abs.
Well, you dont reap when you dont sow so...
Anyway, now that i've learnt how to maximize my workout, guess gym's gonna get much much much more fulfilling.
And Wong Lai Yee, you're hitting the gym with me the next round! :D

Whats with blogger!

2009-03-30T23:10:00.000-07:00

I'll have to put up with this skin for now.
Blogger's all cocked up.
I've been failing to upload the pretty skin i chose from blogskins.com
Ugh.

What am i, a dishwasher?!

2009-03-30T20:10:00.000-07:00

Im smoking right now.
Not cigg. smoking, but rather fuming.
Last night, after i came out from my night bath, i saw that there were kitchen utensils left unwashed from dinner.
It is Sam's job to do the dishes.
And when i mean dishes, it refers to everything used to prepare dinner.
So i was cussing and wondering at the same time, whether my brother is mentally-challenged
Or trying to be funny, but failing badly.
Alas, i decided to do the family a service and wash the stuff up
Despite having moisturizer on my hand already fuck
Then tonight, after dinner, Sam and my pop went out to get some groceries.
I was washing away the leftover food from the plates when mom's phone rang.
Picked it up:
pop: eh, can you do the dishes because by the time your brother and me reach home, it'll be very late already.
me: yeah sure, why don't you ask him to wait til his next lifetime, if there's even one for him as a human.
pop: at least help him do abit.
me: (resisting to scream 'fuck; out, literally swallowed my fury) whatever, bye.

Wtf is this?
Wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf
Mind you, they were going to get unimportant stuff like mango sorbet.
From a NTUC outlet not 15 minutes away from my house.
Wtf is this?
I'm not some dishwasher okay.
Fuck.
Big big big big big big fuck.
Back in Sec4, even if i had mountain loads of homework waiting for me, i still do the dishes.
Without any complain.

Well, i'll conserve my fury for later.
When they get home, i'm gonna explode in their faces.
And i'm gonna learn judo or taekwando or whatever do until i attain black belt, blue belt or whatever belt.
So that i can whack the daylights, starlights of whatever lights out of that prick.
Think he play bball big deal.
Pui.
And you know what, if he ever reincarnates, i hope he'll become a dishwasher.
A cheap and lousy one.
So that whenever he breaks down, he'll get kicked.
Hah!